31 October 2009

the ghosts of halloween past

Here are my costumes from the past few years. Some are a little embarrassing, some I'm very proud of. The most interesting thing is that I didn't really care much for Halloween in high school, and it wasn't until college that I started going all out in making costumes. There is something so freeing about going out in costume, you can release whatever you're feeling and feel very little self consciousness (but that will be elaborated on in my post-Halloween 2009 run down).
2005-Stoplight
2006-This was the year that I was Lara Croft Tomb Raider (complete with Nerf gun that resided in a homemade cardboard holster on my leg) and a fairy but unfortunately there are no pictures of those. (I went to a different event every night that whole week before Halloween) Also, I was a 1940's pin-up girl with my roommate who looks exactly like Kate Beckinsale in Pearl Harbor in this picture.
2007-Pikachu- this is the ONLY picture I have of that costume and that makes me so sad because I really had the whole Pikachu thing nailed on this one!
2008- Degas ballerina and my favorite Halloween costume of all time because I got to make a tutu.

29 October 2009

Little red

(vogue)

George Frederic Watts
(1927-Author Unknown)
Caspar Scheuren

Gustave Dore 1883
2004
1960
Schmidhammer 1910


A more modern take on the red-capped little girl...

26 October 2009

indian summer


MusicPlaylist

Indian Summer by pedro the lion
Last week from out of the cold drizzle came the sun, and with it came warm autumn days perfect for bike rides to work and taking a walk with a friend near dark.
(10-20-09)homemade skirt inspired by this collection, BP sweater, thrifted CK belt, target flats
(10-21-09)Kimchi Blue dress, Born boots, an obscene amount of hair that needs to be whacked off

20 October 2009

stay gold

A Poem: My Bad Blogging
I have a terrible sinus infection
looking at a screen makes me scream
(in pain) I will return
blogging in the right direction


MusicPlaylist
MySpace Music Playlist at MixPod.com


19 October 2009

Got it

I got it! The pharmacist and my dermatologist teamed up on the insurance company and I only had to pay $100 for the month of meds. I am so relieved. Part of me hoped that this would just be over, but in the long run finishing it will have been worth it. Thank you for the optimistic comments, it really meant a lot to me.
On another note, I am going to start posting outfits whenever I can. Getting dressed makes me feel like I have to leave the house rather than hide until my face gets clear. Its also something fun to look forward to in the morning; putting together something that will make me smile throughout the day.
dress:Target sweater:BP tights:Alloy boots:Dolce Vita purse:Marc by Marc Jacobs scarf poking out of bag:Paris
*Note to self: Be less awkward!
**Note to self 2: remove hair ties from wrist, its tacky.

18 October 2009

Accutane

I wasn't sure if I was ever going to blog this but, I am kind of at a point where I gotta get it out there. For the past few months I've been taking Accutane (well, the generic, Claravis).
I've had acne for as long as I can remember. Its always had ups and downs, some months worse than others. I finally realized that antibiotics, creams, cleaning, or anything else I'd tried was going to work at my college graduation when my makeup wasn't doing the trick to cover it and I wouldn't let anyone get a photo up close. I had been planning to start it, but I wasn't thrilled about it until that point.
I jumped through the hoops of getting the meds (blood work, pregnancy tests, doctors) and finally started it at the end of May. I was so excited. A miracle drug that would clear up my face and keep me clear forever. This is a good point to mention that I only have acne on my face, in fact I barely have pores anywhere else. The thought of not feeling self conscious for once sustained me through the first few months.
Anyone who has taken Accutane can tell you that it is not a pretty process. The side effects are scary, and your skin gets worse ( a lot worse) before it gets better. I was still optimistic.
Until now.
I pretty much started this blog to take my mind off the mental and physical side effects of the drug and give me something to focus on and keep me writing. I decided that serious job hunting would require a confidence that I lack with acne which is why I am still living home and working two jobs that I don't really care about. I miss writing, reporting, and broadcasting though. I know that until I finish this I don't have the energy or confidence to do any of those things.
My face was never worse than it was this summer. I only started letting people take my picture again recently because I have a great makeup (Even Better by Clinique!) and because my skin really is starting to look a lot smoother.
Its not better than it was before this though and that is why I am so upset that I had to switch health insurance. With my family health insurance my birth control which I am required to be on was covered, my appointments with my dermatologist were covered, blood tests, meds (including my inhalers for my asthma--completely unrelated but its necessary to know) were all covered. I admit, I was spoiled because my Claravis only cost $5 a month!
Now, under Aenta's Healthy New York plan I pay A LOT, and none of the things I need is covered. I went to the pharmacy on Friday to pick up my pack of Claravis and it was $1100. I started crying. The pharmacist and my dermatologist talked and they are trying to see what they can do. But even if they can convince the company to cover some of the cost, it will still be incredibly expensive.
All weekend I have been in tears about this. I know you might think I am vain to think that this is a "real" problem, but all I want is to literally be comfortable in my skin. I'm not sure what is going to happen next, hopefully I will be able to finish the last 2 or 3 months of my course. If I can't I don't know what will happen to my skin if it will get better, or worse, or stay the same. Right now I'm just really stressed out and depressed. I know the depression is from the meds, internally and externally, but its really hard not to dwell on it.
For reference (and this is really embarrassing because its edited to make my skin look better) is what I looked like in June.

Sunday baking

Yesterday was my mom's birthday, so today I baked her pumpkin muffins (chocolate chip, walnut, and plain) and gave her a birthday present (shh! its a salad spinner). I'd offer a recipe for the muffins but lets be serious, I got a box of Trader Joe's Pumpkin Muffin Mix and added the toppings. I was too tired to make them from scratch.
Also, because its rainy and cold I bundled up in my coziest skirt and sweater.
Sweater:BP Skirt:Free People Tights:Liz Claiborne Boots: Born
(Check out my awesome Pride and Prejudice towel hanging on the door. Its part of the first chapter printed in towel form. Its like a hug from Mr. Darcy every time I get out of the bath.)

14 October 2009

Cozy-posy

This has been a hectic couple of days, the nicest thing is being able to come home at night. To come home, not to a college apartment, but to my house with my family. The little autumn details that I would never have the time if I were on my own to bother with at this point are out out right on schedule. Just one of the many reasons being home isn't really so bad.

07 October 2009

Nutcase

After a month of riding my bike everyday to work I decided that its time for a helmet. OK, OK, I should have had one to begin with but I didn't. Quite frankly all the helmets I have ever seen are intensely lame. I don't want to look like some aerodynamic athlete. I just don't want to break my skull open. I really liked Zooey Deschanel's scooter helmet in Yes Man, but a bright blue motorcycle helmet also seems like overkill. Finally, I think I have found a solution. Nutcase Helmets. They aren't futuristic, sporty, or made for a motorcycle. They are just right for riding a bicycle around town. I can't wait to get one, so that I can feel safer on my bike without feeling self conscious about my head wear. Now I just have to pick a color...

06 October 2009

Boston Boston Boston

It was a long drive, but it was worth it. Buzzing on Red-Bull, LK and I made the drive after work last Friday to Boston. We sang along to new favorites (Madeline- White Flag) and old favorites (Taking Back Sunday- Cute Without the "E") all the way across Massachusetts. Unfortunately, letting a camera flash go off in the car would have blinded LK so there are no pictures of our trip there.
A little after 10 we went out in Davis Square in Somerville and went to a bar called Joshua Tree. I was VERY disappointed that U2 wasn't playing. I fortunately was enjoying my drink enough to grow a mustache and dance to Salt n' Peppa, mocking the useless DJ.
And here is Spel, he was kind enough to let us crash at his house for the weekend.
When we woke up the next morning we went and had breakfast at a little tiny diner and then made our way to the T station. On the way we stopped in some little stores and got presents. We navigated our way through Boston and finally made it to the Mapparium. Once we were there we realized it had closed early for the day. Instead of getting upset, we went over to South Station and made our way from there to Harpoonfest!
Once there, we got into the spirit of Oktoberfest and traded our drink tickets in for a drink which led to this conversation.
LK: Its a good fall beer.
Kallie: Yea, because it makes me fall over.
While waiting for Spel to meet us we took a free tour of the Harpoon Brewery where we got samples of beer and learned how the place was run.
Looking for food and trying to stay dry in the rain.
After having a dinner of delicious German potato pancakes and a few more beers, we went to Harvard Square for drinks and on the way I got in a shouting match with a bear.
On Sunday we walked around before leaving and took some pictures of the town. I just want to point out that the very last picture in the grid is actually the same colors as my house! It endeared me to Somerville entirely and convinced me I could someday move there.
But there's no place like home...

Magical castle

Just a little something pretty to brighten your day.


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